So long since i last blogged!

Tired .

28 Dec 2009.

I was told by my manager about HIM.
And it just pissed me off.
He told my manager that when he wake up he don't feel anything towards me animore when my manager asked him why we broke up.
WOW!
i also want that kinda miracle to happen to me.

After knowing that, i didn't have any communication with him.
NOT EVEN EYE contact.

i was angry, PISSED off when i heard that coming out from his mouth.
"Nice one"

But what i can do is just be patient.
Don't burst out my anger.
Because there is no point.

29 Dec 2009

He msg me.
Asking me whether i was angry at him.
Because mof my attitude at work.

i told him that i didn't even talk or have any eye contact with him.
what makes him say i was angry?

Then the conversation goes on.....
Until to the point that he says he still likes and misses me.
"Too good to be TRUE"

Then i ask him about his girlfriend.
He say he don't have one.

Hmm.
I didn't tell him what i saw.
In the wallet.
I just kept quiet.
He ask whether did i trust him.
Then i say yes i TRUST.

"if he were to lie, it's his lost. Because someday somehow, we will know whether the person is telling a lie"

I was werking that day.
Until 11pm.
HE told me that he want to meet me.
I ask my manager to release me early at 930pm.

Met him, sat down, and we talked.
He told me that he wants us to start anew.
i was thinking hard.
The result is a yes.

I just wonder how about the girl in the wallet.
BUt didn't have the courage to ask yet.
maybe someday i will find out the truth.

'Just don't let me catch you offguard"

The end.

Labels: Your beautiful LIE

Ive not been having my beautiful sleep.
hahas.

I am really tired.
of my hectic schedule.

Yesterday went out with my family around 12noon.
Came back ard six pm to meet wahidah at tampines interchange.
We talk about alot of things.
Ghost and stuff.
Until nearly 11pm we went home.

Hahas.

Just finish work now.
And darm i hate my hair.
I've cut short.
=(
to get rid of all the SWAY i have.
Hahahaa.

Learning to pray again.
So that i will be more patient in days to come. =)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Suprising new's i've heard about.
& like wow you can spend anything for her.
I think we're really not meant to be.
Thats the reason why things turn out this way.

If i had a chance i want to spray water at your face.
Seriously.

You're just so stupid to fork out a large sum of money for her.

darm.

You will realise when she uses u one day when it is already too late.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've seen what i always wanted to see/know.
WOW!
I guess god has granted me my wish to find out the truth.

YOU are a LIAR.
I didn't realised until now.

Need time?
Yes you really do.
Need time alone with someone else.

To you:

Allah is very fair.
You will get what you deserve soon.

What goes around comes around.

Same goes for me.
I already get what i deserve thats why im suffering like this.

You dump me two/three times for a girl.
Yet i'm still waiting?

Maybe i'm blind.
UH i guess not maybe but I AM really blinded by love.
I've always blame myself.
But now who i have to blame is you.

I didn't have any other boyfriend behind your back.
BUt you do.

I strongly believe that god (allah) is fair.
"what goes around comes around."

THE reason why i say this because i already got what i deserve.
For breaking two people's heart when i am in the process of waiting for you.
Now i'm hurt more worst than what they have been hurt by me.

Now you left me, Dump me like a trash.
Sooner or later, someone will dump you like how you did to me.
Maybe to a worst stage.
By then you will realised just how much you've hurt me.
BY Then, it maybe to late.

Amin.

Sorry to ransack your wallet.
I feel sorry to have seen the picture in it.
WOah.
AT Least i can stil be proud of myself.
*WHITES*

elisha is your name.
what your sister told me in the first place is true.
Should have trusted her in the first place.

You just destroy the trust i have for you.
why still  hanging on to my pictures and keychain if you really doesn't love me anymore.

-Let natural takes it caused-

Labels: Your beautiful LIE

woke up at 5am today.
Gosh. Tiring.

Just end work at 4am.
All the bark orders came in.

Now what should i do?
Hmm.
Go and meet my bestfriend.
yeah!

"i hope i could apply for airport pass soon"

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Went out with atika to town today.
Fun yeah.
So long never see her and we've got loadsa things to talk about.

From 5pm-9.45pm
Go here and there.
From orchard to somerset to plaza singapura.
TIRED!
yet fun.

Went to emphosis to buy slippers.

& i saw a NICE SHAWL at esprit plaza sg.
Its $39.90.
Gosh!
Have to wait for my pay.
Irritating sey =(

We had fun.
I'm gonna be a shopaholic soon if i spend my free time shopping evryday.
so must prevent that from happening. =)

We talked alot.
Half-way i suddenly kept quiet.
she asked, why suddenly ure silence?

Because....
I suddenly think about him.
I really don't know what to do.
If i continue like this i am going to go crazy.

Get a grip of myself!
Trying but cudn't.
Everyday like this.
Randomly i will like to be alone.
Listening to LOUD music makes me feel better.
But not fully.
Sometimes like wanting to cry.

"Can't he remember what we used to do together?
Almost everyday. Can he forget me just like that?
What is his real reason? That's a BIG QUESTION MARK in my HEAD!"

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

WuChun.

Yesterday i saw him while i was werking in terminal 2 departure transit.
wanted to take his autograph but cudn't.
was too busy.
Gosh he is so handsome.

he queued but end up going away because we took so long to settle the orders as the customers are so darm fussy.
The orders are complicated.
Such an ANGMOH!

When can i get a chance to see wuchun again?
hahaha.
" I MISSED THE CHANCE YESTERDAY! "
=( SOBSOB =(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Tired.

Working in BK today.
I was thinking what i'm gonna say to hime when i first see him later.

Saw him and ask him about school.
And he answered.

I feel...
As if i shouldn't have talked.
The way he replied...
That is unsatisfying.
GOSH!

How can i get rid of him from my thick skull head?
How can i?

Someone please tell me what to do.

Seeing him again is like having an arrow going thru my heart.
It's worst.
tHEN any other relationships i had.

" i hope my feelings for him will FADE soon.
Coz i can take it any longer. =("

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've had enough.

I know i'm the one who touched the computer while you all are out.
But then that doesn't give you the right to say that i'm the one who spoil the computer.
Why everything blame me sia?
YOU ALL DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I REALLY FEEL.

Everything its my fault.
If you were to ask me nicely at least it's okay.
But then you ask me like as if i am really at fault.
& it's like you GUYS ARE BLAMING ME!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sick and tired of everything.
SWEAR TO GOD, I WILL NEVER EVER TOUCH YOUR COMPUTER IF YOUR NOT AROUND.
I feel so fucked up!

Labels: anger

Great time talking to my colleague at work today.

It has been quite some time i never talk to them as much.

I really need a talk for non-stop.
and i manage to.
Julika is always a listening ear.
I can talk anything under the world with her.
I always talked to her when i'm angry, sad, in fact any kinda emotions that run through my head!
She's there!

hmmm.
Its 0448hours and i'm not sleeping yet?
It has been an hour i sat infront of my computer.

I've been out the whole day.
Met cik rozanah & aloysius at eighteen chefs to chitchat.
They are fun too.
but i filter my words when i'm with them.
scared to say the wrong things again. =(

Before i met them, Along the way there is this gerl, asking whether i could borrow her my handphone as she really need to make a phonecall.
i said ok.
after talking to her friend, she says thanks & ''god bless''.
I hope i will be blessed.
hehe=)
No harm helping others in need. =)

Yesterday alex called to ask about pantry's ordering.
I explained.
If only i can come down and help.
But i have nothing to do with 18chefs anymore.
So i try not to bother about it.

And cool.
They found a new supervisor to be.
I knew it already.
Hope things goes fine.
Many people are quiting anyways.

Dear Rinie,
Sorry to leave and trouble you alot.
Sunday can't seem to be your offday for this week.
so i hope you won't fall sick too soon okay?
bear with it until they stablize.

18chefs,
Hope the sales will be better.
You all can make it.
woohoo.

Hahas.
Random2 post.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Wednesday.
It's so BORING.
Everyone is out except foe my cousins & me.
They are sleeping right now.
GOSH! Its 1311HOURS.

Got 2hours more before i have to go to work.
I wander how much i will get for my 18chefs pay.
I hope it's not too little.
I have to pay for a few things:
Handphone bills
School Related
Adult ez-link card

I hope i will get a job soon enough.
BK is far for me.
18chefs is a history.

*WORRIED*

Tomorrow will have to find a new job.
With Hanafi.
Wish us LUCK! =)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

yesterday was a great day for me.

got some critism from colleague but that just doesn't matter.
as long as they are happy can already.

i already told joe that i wanna quit.
and he respect my decision.

i never regret quiting.
as the choice is mine to make.

thank you 18chef.
fo giving me the opportunity to be a supervisor.

i must've done a bad job.
im without experience.

i love the old 18chef.
the old bunch of people are great!

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

HERE WE COME: FOOD!



I'm HUNGRY.





FOOD! FOOD! FOOD!


[NASI AYAM PENYET/SMASHED CHICKEN RICE]



That's the chrismas tree. TOO big. CAn't manage to take the whole tree. Hahaha.=D





Dinah is getting bored.


That's the FUN that we had.
Pictures here and there.
Celebrating my RECOVERy.
Tomorrow will be a NEW day.
So yeah.

ENDURE for a couple more weeks.
And out I GO!
Muahaha=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Darm.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

My greatest wish is to get into an accident.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I stayed until 3am this morning to finish up the show.
If u haven't watch this korean drama, u should watch it.
If you're a korean drama fan.

WOW!
The actor in this drama.
ALL the guys are so darm HANDSOME.
Hahaha.

But the ending,
I DON'T QUITE LIKE IT.
ALL THE GUYS ARE AFTER HER.
Like what the hell.
Don't know who manage to get her in the end. =(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

STOMACH CRAMP!

Gosh.
My stomach is killing me.
Panadols.
Not effective enough.

I'm so sleepy right now.
Sleepy head!
I wish i can go to sleep.
=(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Bought stuff today.

SUCH AS:
skirt
bag
cap
earing
dot.dot.dot.

Had fun.

Today will be having lunch with Jazz.
I'm like TIRED!
Like i always do.
LOOK at the time.
It's 0207hours & i'm not sleeping yet?
my gosh!

As usual, yesterday i ate alot!
Like NOBODY'S business.
I think my period is coming that's why i ate alot.

DEAR STOMACH,
please don't ask for food okay?
i'm going to sleep soon and if u sing, i will not be able to sleep.
okay?
okay?
=)
pity me alright. =(

T.B.C

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I'm working today.
AGAIN!
Didn't get to see my dad

Finished at 5pm today.
Going town with julika and SHOP til we DROP!
hahas=)

I'll show the stuffs i buy tomorrow aite!

TILL THEN=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Gosh.

Darmed TIRED today.
Oppsss.
I meant yesterday.

Just came back from work.
Snatch the come from my little brother for awhile. =)

I worked at 2 places today.

Wanted to help BK because of the upcoming OER.
I hope we pass.
Insya-allah.

I'm worn out.

Hmm.
Work was fun.
With Julika.
As usual, we talk crap through out the working time.
So yeah, i don't feel bored with her around.
THANK GOD!!!

Extended until 11.30pm when i was supposed to go home at 11pm.

But nevermind.
ONCE IN A WHILE WE GIVE AND TAKE.

Hahas. =)

I PREFER to work in BK because it's more FUN.
No conflicts & stuff.
We get along well.
UNLIKE any other jobs i've work at.
So I think i'd prefer working there for the rest of my life. =) TRUE ENOUGH.
I don't blaugh people.

I missed SHAFIQ!
I guess he's doing fine now.

Till Then.=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've met someone.
Who LOVES to laugh i guess.

He kept on laughing non-stop.
I wander whats so funny about.

But can say that he is kinda cute.
ssshhh-

Don't tell anyone okays?

Today at work was so tiring.
I had TONS of work to do.
Still under my PENDING list.

Got to go now.

CHEERS!

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've been a host for two times today.
Voice isn't that loud.
Yet i've tried my best.
& that's good.

I've been like a rubbish bin these days.
Keep on eating.
Junk Food & stuffs.
My stomach is killing me as i am really hungry.
Seriously, i am.

EARLY YESTERDAY:
I ate Snow Flakes, Rootbeer-battered Fish and chip, donuts, chocolates, garlic bread.
But now, darm! I am still very HUNGRY.
I feel like eating mac Spicy.
Now is 0213HOURS.
so Dream on eating and what i should do now is sleep.

Tomorrow I will be working at BK from 5pm-11pm.
& today 10am-10pm at 18chefs.

Killing me.

The reason why i'm still holding on to my old job is because there are too much memories that i'm not willing to let go of.

I remember the first day i went in.

My brother & her ex-girlfren.

How my brother teases his friends at work.
it's quite fun.
you can hear laughter everywhere.

From a very shy, quiet person, i became someone who is the opposite.
I changed alot when i start to work in bk.
I started conversation eventhough i'm shy.

I really regret working in my current place last time.
I used to blame myself for working there and losing the one i love.
I kept thinking about the reasons.
& i couldn't find the answer.
So i thought the main reason is because i've had a new job & neglected him.

I was wrong.
I shouldn't think that way.
That is his choice.
Now that i've chose this life, i should move on.
Don't brag anymore.

Now i no longer regret working.
Because all this is what i've chosen in the first place.
Not interested in finding boyfriend at the moment.
Sorry.
Gates are closed.

Maybe we're not good enough for each other.
so stop day dreaming and get alive!
''I SHOULD STOP MOURNING FOR THE DEAD TO COME ALIVE.''

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've no interest in finding the new one yet.

Not saying that i'm still waiting but currently i have no time to find one due to my very tight schedule.
My life is so boring and i don't want my who ever to be boyfriend suffer.

I loose the one i really love because i am very busy working evertime and i don't want that to happen again.

He just don't know how much i really love & treasure him.
Nevermind, one day he will.
That's a matter of time.
I'll just leave it up to fate.
If we're fated to be then we will.
If not then maybe i'm better off without him?

Dear Friend,
Ur pray is in need.
I hope ur prayers for me will come true soon.
Amin.

I've got TONS! of work to do.
I just finished my schedule for next week.
Now is already 0129HOURS.
Getting very late and i am still not sleeping although i am sleepy.
Starting at 10am tomorrow as Hakim will drop by to borrow some receipts for cashier.

Tomorrow will be a new day for me to face.
Different kinds of customers.
But they entertain me alot.
=)

I still have TONS of things to do when i work tomorrow.
E-mails, Dishwasher[will he come?], pantry[open mayo, brownie], ordering & etc.
that's an everyday routine.
Don't even have the time to reply SMSes or answer calls.

WHAT A LIFE I'VE GOT.

Until someone rescue me, FOREVER my life will be this way.=(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I wish he was edward cullen.

Not his looks but the story line.

He love bella so much.
& thought he couldn't protect her.
He was disappointed with himself that is the reason why he decided to leave bella.

He told her lies saying that he has no feelings for her and she is not good enuf for him.
It's hurting for bella to hear all that stuff coming out from edwards mouth.

Bella was indecisive and tried to forget edward by spending time with jacob.
feelings have developed but she still cudn't forget edward no matter how hard she tried.

Edward thought that bella died, and decided to end his life too.
Bella was just in time to save him with the help of Alice.

Edward told bella that he lied when he told her he didn't love her and he deserve someone more better.
& he also say that he loves her so much and cudn't leave without her.
Wud never ever leave her again.

Bella insisted on becoming one of the cullens.
Most of the cullens agreed because they have already treated bella as part of the family.

In the end, Edward agrees to let her be one of them.
But he wants her to promise that she wud marry him.

& thats the end.

Waiting for the eclipse next year near JUNE.

Can't wait!

You shud watch it if u haven't.
It's a Romantic vampire movie that you all should watch.
Hahaha.=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Today is a very busy day for me.

Scheduling, Finalising the employment cost and everything.
Lucky i have done all that.
But i'm not sure whether i have done a good job or i haven't.

I hope i have.

I'm not here to impress anyone.
But just to complete my job.

I am hungry now.
Don't know what to eat yet.

Benny bought cakes for christmas to sell.
I find the cakes ''BEAUTIFUL''.

Hahas.=)
Can't wait to eat alex's food.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I'm addicted to ur shoulder,
''The shoulder for me to cry on, and for me to sleep.''

I'm addicted to ur joke,
''The joke u're always trying to give when i'm bored or sad.''

Im addicted to your Touch,
''The touch of your hands at my cheek to wipe away my tears when i am crying.''

Im addicted to your comfort,
''The comfort that you gave whenever i am feeling down.''

I'm addicted to your smile,
''Everytime i look at you.''

I'm addicted to your kiss,
''The kiss that you gave on my cheek everytime we say our goodbye's.''

I'm obviously addicted to you,
''You whom is always there for me whenever i need you.
I love your sweetness before you took it away.
I was wondering why.
Maybe because of my attitude towards you.
I've slowly changed.
But sorry if it's too late.
But as far as i know,
I still love you as much as i did before.
Still waiting for the day when my dreams will come true.
& hopefully involving you.''

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I went to cold storage in north point early last week to buy my pantry stuff.

I was actually browsing around when one guy came to me and asked,
''Where can i find sugar?''

I was darmed shocked.
& in said,
''sorry i'm not any of those worker here.''

I laughed and go.

My uniform is very different from them.
HAhahaha.

LOL!!!!

darm paisey for the person sey. =D

Labels: iesha

SITI NUR AISHAH BTE JAAFAR


used to be very SHY & QUIET
Now: I don't know. OBSERVE ME


"EVENTS"

18 Feb 2010
Practical THREE part ONE @ YCK [1520hours]

4 March 2010
Riding Theory Test [2000HOURS] @ WoodLands

Rinie
Fahmi
RoskaLreza
iesha
Dayah[4a3]
SuzLina
Teck Hua
Maryam[DAVP]
Esfan[DAVP]

So long since i last blogged!

Tired .

28 Dec 2009.

I was told by my manager about HIM.
And it just pissed me off.
He told my manager that when he wake up he don't feel anything towards me animore when my manager asked him why we broke up.
WOW!
i also want that kinda miracle to happen to me.

After knowing that, i didn't have any communication with him.
NOT EVEN EYE contact.

i was angry, PISSED off when i heard that coming out from his mouth.
"Nice one"

But what i can do is just be patient.
Don't burst out my anger.
Because there is no point.

29 Dec 2009

He msg me.
Asking me whether i was angry at him.
Because mof my attitude at work.

i told him that i didn't even talk or have any eye contact with him.
what makes him say i was angry?

Then the conversation goes on.....
Until to the point that he says he still likes and misses me.
"Too good to be TRUE"

Then i ask him about his girlfriend.
He say he don't have one.

Hmm.
I didn't tell him what i saw.
In the wallet.
I just kept quiet.
He ask whether did i trust him.
Then i say yes i TRUST.

"if he were to lie, it's his lost. Because someday somehow, we will know whether the person is telling a lie"

I was werking that day.
Until 11pm.
HE told me that he want to meet me.
I ask my manager to release me early at 930pm.

Met him, sat down, and we talked.
He told me that he wants us to start anew.
i was thinking hard.
The result is a yes.

I just wonder how about the girl in the wallet.
BUt didn't have the courage to ask yet.
maybe someday i will find out the truth.

'Just don't let me catch you offguard"

The end.

Labels: Your beautiful LIE

Ive not been having my beautiful sleep.
hahas.

I am really tired.
of my hectic schedule.

Yesterday went out with my family around 12noon.
Came back ard six pm to meet wahidah at tampines interchange.
We talk about alot of things.
Ghost and stuff.
Until nearly 11pm we went home.

Hahas.

Just finish work now.
And darm i hate my hair.
I've cut short.
=(
to get rid of all the SWAY i have.
Hahahaa.

Learning to pray again.
So that i will be more patient in days to come. =)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Suprising new's i've heard about.
& like wow you can spend anything for her.
I think we're really not meant to be.
Thats the reason why things turn out this way.

If i had a chance i want to spray water at your face.
Seriously.

You're just so stupid to fork out a large sum of money for her.

darm.

You will realise when she uses u one day when it is already too late.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've seen what i always wanted to see/know.
WOW!
I guess god has granted me my wish to find out the truth.

YOU are a LIAR.
I didn't realised until now.

Need time?
Yes you really do.
Need time alone with someone else.

To you:

Allah is very fair.
You will get what you deserve soon.

What goes around comes around.

Same goes for me.
I already get what i deserve thats why im suffering like this.

You dump me two/three times for a girl.
Yet i'm still waiting?

Maybe i'm blind.
UH i guess not maybe but I AM really blinded by love.
I've always blame myself.
But now who i have to blame is you.

I didn't have any other boyfriend behind your back.
BUt you do.

I strongly believe that god (allah) is fair.
"what goes around comes around."

THE reason why i say this because i already got what i deserve.
For breaking two people's heart when i am in the process of waiting for you.
Now i'm hurt more worst than what they have been hurt by me.

Now you left me, Dump me like a trash.
Sooner or later, someone will dump you like how you did to me.
Maybe to a worst stage.
By then you will realised just how much you've hurt me.
BY Then, it maybe to late.

Amin.

Sorry to ransack your wallet.
I feel sorry to have seen the picture in it.
WOah.
AT Least i can stil be proud of myself.
*WHITES*

elisha is your name.
what your sister told me in the first place is true.
Should have trusted her in the first place.

You just destroy the trust i have for you.
why still  hanging on to my pictures and keychain if you really doesn't love me anymore.

-Let natural takes it caused-

Labels: Your beautiful LIE

woke up at 5am today.
Gosh. Tiring.

Just end work at 4am.
All the bark orders came in.

Now what should i do?
Hmm.
Go and meet my bestfriend.
yeah!

"i hope i could apply for airport pass soon"

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Went out with atika to town today.
Fun yeah.
So long never see her and we've got loadsa things to talk about.

From 5pm-9.45pm
Go here and there.
From orchard to somerset to plaza singapura.
TIRED!
yet fun.

Went to emphosis to buy slippers.

& i saw a NICE SHAWL at esprit plaza sg.
Its $39.90.
Gosh!
Have to wait for my pay.
Irritating sey =(

We had fun.
I'm gonna be a shopaholic soon if i spend my free time shopping evryday.
so must prevent that from happening. =)

We talked alot.
Half-way i suddenly kept quiet.
she asked, why suddenly ure silence?

Because....
I suddenly think about him.
I really don't know what to do.
If i continue like this i am going to go crazy.

Get a grip of myself!
Trying but cudn't.
Everyday like this.
Randomly i will like to be alone.
Listening to LOUD music makes me feel better.
But not fully.
Sometimes like wanting to cry.

"Can't he remember what we used to do together?
Almost everyday. Can he forget me just like that?
What is his real reason? That's a BIG QUESTION MARK in my HEAD!"

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

WuChun.

Yesterday i saw him while i was werking in terminal 2 departure transit.
wanted to take his autograph but cudn't.
was too busy.
Gosh he is so handsome.

he queued but end up going away because we took so long to settle the orders as the customers are so darm fussy.
The orders are complicated.
Such an ANGMOH!

When can i get a chance to see wuchun again?
hahaha.
" I MISSED THE CHANCE YESTERDAY! "
=( SOBSOB =(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Tired.

Working in BK today.
I was thinking what i'm gonna say to hime when i first see him later.

Saw him and ask him about school.
And he answered.

I feel...
As if i shouldn't have talked.
The way he replied...
That is unsatisfying.
GOSH!

How can i get rid of him from my thick skull head?
How can i?

Someone please tell me what to do.

Seeing him again is like having an arrow going thru my heart.
It's worst.
tHEN any other relationships i had.

" i hope my feelings for him will FADE soon.
Coz i can take it any longer. =("

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've had enough.

I know i'm the one who touched the computer while you all are out.
But then that doesn't give you the right to say that i'm the one who spoil the computer.
Why everything blame me sia?
YOU ALL DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I REALLY FEEL.

Everything its my fault.
If you were to ask me nicely at least it's okay.
But then you ask me like as if i am really at fault.
& it's like you GUYS ARE BLAMING ME!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sick and tired of everything.
SWEAR TO GOD, I WILL NEVER EVER TOUCH YOUR COMPUTER IF YOUR NOT AROUND.
I feel so fucked up!

Labels: anger

Great time talking to my colleague at work today.

It has been quite some time i never talk to them as much.

I really need a talk for non-stop.
and i manage to.
Julika is always a listening ear.
I can talk anything under the world with her.
I always talked to her when i'm angry, sad, in fact any kinda emotions that run through my head!
She's there!

hmmm.
Its 0448hours and i'm not sleeping yet?
It has been an hour i sat infront of my computer.

I've been out the whole day.
Met cik rozanah & aloysius at eighteen chefs to chitchat.
They are fun too.
but i filter my words when i'm with them.
scared to say the wrong things again. =(

Before i met them, Along the way there is this gerl, asking whether i could borrow her my handphone as she really need to make a phonecall.
i said ok.
after talking to her friend, she says thanks & ''god bless''.
I hope i will be blessed.
hehe=)
No harm helping others in need. =)

Yesterday alex called to ask about pantry's ordering.
I explained.
If only i can come down and help.
But i have nothing to do with 18chefs anymore.
So i try not to bother about it.

And cool.
They found a new supervisor to be.
I knew it already.
Hope things goes fine.
Many people are quiting anyways.

Dear Rinie,
Sorry to leave and trouble you alot.
Sunday can't seem to be your offday for this week.
so i hope you won't fall sick too soon okay?
bear with it until they stablize.

18chefs,
Hope the sales will be better.
You all can make it.
woohoo.

Hahas.
Random2 post.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Wednesday.
It's so BORING.
Everyone is out except foe my cousins & me.
They are sleeping right now.
GOSH! Its 1311HOURS.

Got 2hours more before i have to go to work.
I wander how much i will get for my 18chefs pay.
I hope it's not too little.
I have to pay for a few things:
Handphone bills
School Related
Adult ez-link card

I hope i will get a job soon enough.
BK is far for me.
18chefs is a history.

*WORRIED*

Tomorrow will have to find a new job.
With Hanafi.
Wish us LUCK! =)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

yesterday was a great day for me.

got some critism from colleague but that just doesn't matter.
as long as they are happy can already.

i already told joe that i wanna quit.
and he respect my decision.

i never regret quiting.
as the choice is mine to make.

thank you 18chef.
fo giving me the opportunity to be a supervisor.

i must've done a bad job.
im without experience.

i love the old 18chef.
the old bunch of people are great!

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

HERE WE COME: FOOD!



I'm HUNGRY.





FOOD! FOOD! FOOD!


[NASI AYAM PENYET/SMASHED CHICKEN RICE]



That's the chrismas tree. TOO big. CAn't manage to take the whole tree. Hahaha.=D





Dinah is getting bored.


That's the FUN that we had.
Pictures here and there.
Celebrating my RECOVERy.
Tomorrow will be a NEW day.
So yeah.

ENDURE for a couple more weeks.
And out I GO!
Muahaha=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Darm.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

My greatest wish is to get into an accident.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I stayed until 3am this morning to finish up the show.
If u haven't watch this korean drama, u should watch it.
If you're a korean drama fan.

WOW!
The actor in this drama.
ALL the guys are so darm HANDSOME.
Hahaha.

But the ending,
I DON'T QUITE LIKE IT.
ALL THE GUYS ARE AFTER HER.
Like what the hell.
Don't know who manage to get her in the end. =(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

STOMACH CRAMP!

Gosh.
My stomach is killing me.
Panadols.
Not effective enough.

I'm so sleepy right now.
Sleepy head!
I wish i can go to sleep.
=(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Bought stuff today.

SUCH AS:
skirt
bag
cap
earing
dot.dot.dot.

Had fun.

Today will be having lunch with Jazz.
I'm like TIRED!
Like i always do.
LOOK at the time.
It's 0207hours & i'm not sleeping yet?
my gosh!

As usual, yesterday i ate alot!
Like NOBODY'S business.
I think my period is coming that's why i ate alot.

DEAR STOMACH,
please don't ask for food okay?
i'm going to sleep soon and if u sing, i will not be able to sleep.
okay?
okay?
=)
pity me alright. =(

T.B.C

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I'm working today.
AGAIN!
Didn't get to see my dad

Finished at 5pm today.
Going town with julika and SHOP til we DROP!
hahas=)

I'll show the stuffs i buy tomorrow aite!

TILL THEN=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Gosh.

Darmed TIRED today.
Oppsss.
I meant yesterday.

Just came back from work.
Snatch the come from my little brother for awhile. =)

I worked at 2 places today.

Wanted to help BK because of the upcoming OER.
I hope we pass.
Insya-allah.

I'm worn out.

Hmm.
Work was fun.
With Julika.
As usual, we talk crap through out the working time.
So yeah, i don't feel bored with her around.
THANK GOD!!!

Extended until 11.30pm when i was supposed to go home at 11pm.

But nevermind.
ONCE IN A WHILE WE GIVE AND TAKE.

Hahas. =)

I PREFER to work in BK because it's more FUN.
No conflicts & stuff.
We get along well.
UNLIKE any other jobs i've work at.
So I think i'd prefer working there for the rest of my life. =) TRUE ENOUGH.
I don't blaugh people.

I missed SHAFIQ!
I guess he's doing fine now.

Till Then.=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've met someone.
Who LOVES to laugh i guess.

He kept on laughing non-stop.
I wander whats so funny about.

But can say that he is kinda cute.
ssshhh-

Don't tell anyone okays?

Today at work was so tiring.
I had TONS of work to do.
Still under my PENDING list.

Got to go now.

CHEERS!

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've been a host for two times today.
Voice isn't that loud.
Yet i've tried my best.
& that's good.

I've been like a rubbish bin these days.
Keep on eating.
Junk Food & stuffs.
My stomach is killing me as i am really hungry.
Seriously, i am.

EARLY YESTERDAY:
I ate Snow Flakes, Rootbeer-battered Fish and chip, donuts, chocolates, garlic bread.
But now, darm! I am still very HUNGRY.
I feel like eating mac Spicy.
Now is 0213HOURS.
so Dream on eating and what i should do now is sleep.

Tomorrow I will be working at BK from 5pm-11pm.
& today 10am-10pm at 18chefs.

Killing me.

The reason why i'm still holding on to my old job is because there are too much memories that i'm not willing to let go of.

I remember the first day i went in.

My brother & her ex-girlfren.

How my brother teases his friends at work.
it's quite fun.
you can hear laughter everywhere.

From a very shy, quiet person, i became someone who is the opposite.
I changed alot when i start to work in bk.
I started conversation eventhough i'm shy.

I really regret working in my current place last time.
I used to blame myself for working there and losing the one i love.
I kept thinking about the reasons.
& i couldn't find the answer.
So i thought the main reason is because i've had a new job & neglected him.

I was wrong.
I shouldn't think that way.
That is his choice.
Now that i've chose this life, i should move on.
Don't brag anymore.

Now i no longer regret working.
Because all this is what i've chosen in the first place.
Not interested in finding boyfriend at the moment.
Sorry.
Gates are closed.

Maybe we're not good enough for each other.
so stop day dreaming and get alive!
''I SHOULD STOP MOURNING FOR THE DEAD TO COME ALIVE.''

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I've no interest in finding the new one yet.

Not saying that i'm still waiting but currently i have no time to find one due to my very tight schedule.
My life is so boring and i don't want my who ever to be boyfriend suffer.

I loose the one i really love because i am very busy working evertime and i don't want that to happen again.

He just don't know how much i really love & treasure him.
Nevermind, one day he will.
That's a matter of time.
I'll just leave it up to fate.
If we're fated to be then we will.
If not then maybe i'm better off without him?

Dear Friend,
Ur pray is in need.
I hope ur prayers for me will come true soon.
Amin.

I've got TONS! of work to do.
I just finished my schedule for next week.
Now is already 0129HOURS.
Getting very late and i am still not sleeping although i am sleepy.
Starting at 10am tomorrow as Hakim will drop by to borrow some receipts for cashier.

Tomorrow will be a new day for me to face.
Different kinds of customers.
But they entertain me alot.
=)

I still have TONS of things to do when i work tomorrow.
E-mails, Dishwasher[will he come?], pantry[open mayo, brownie], ordering & etc.
that's an everyday routine.
Don't even have the time to reply SMSes or answer calls.

WHAT A LIFE I'VE GOT.

Until someone rescue me, FOREVER my life will be this way.=(

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I wish he was edward cullen.

Not his looks but the story line.

He love bella so much.
& thought he couldn't protect her.
He was disappointed with himself that is the reason why he decided to leave bella.

He told her lies saying that he has no feelings for her and she is not good enuf for him.
It's hurting for bella to hear all that stuff coming out from edwards mouth.

Bella was indecisive and tried to forget edward by spending time with jacob.
feelings have developed but she still cudn't forget edward no matter how hard she tried.

Edward thought that bella died, and decided to end his life too.
Bella was just in time to save him with the help of Alice.

Edward told bella that he lied when he told her he didn't love her and he deserve someone more better.
& he also say that he loves her so much and cudn't leave without her.
Wud never ever leave her again.

Bella insisted on becoming one of the cullens.
Most of the cullens agreed because they have already treated bella as part of the family.

In the end, Edward agrees to let her be one of them.
But he wants her to promise that she wud marry him.

& thats the end.

Waiting for the eclipse next year near JUNE.

Can't wait!

You shud watch it if u haven't.
It's a Romantic vampire movie that you all should watch.
Hahaha.=)

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

Today is a very busy day for me.

Scheduling, Finalising the employment cost and everything.
Lucky i have done all that.
But i'm not sure whether i have done a good job or i haven't.

I hope i have.

I'm not here to impress anyone.
But just to complete my job.

I am hungry now.
Don't know what to eat yet.

Benny bought cakes for christmas to sell.
I find the cakes ''BEAUTIFUL''.

Hahas.=)
Can't wait to eat alex's food.

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I'm addicted to ur shoulder,
''The shoulder for me to cry on, and for me to sleep.''

I'm addicted to ur joke,
''The joke u're always trying to give when i'm bored or sad.''

Im addicted to your Touch,
''The touch of your hands at my cheek to wipe away my tears when i am crying.''

Im addicted to your comfort,
''The comfort that you gave whenever i am feeling down.''

I'm addicted to your smile,
''Everytime i look at you.''

I'm addicted to your kiss,
''The kiss that you gave on my cheek everytime we say our goodbye's.''

I'm obviously addicted to you,
''You whom is always there for me whenever i need you.
I love your sweetness before you took it away.
I was wondering why.
Maybe because of my attitude towards you.
I've slowly changed.
But sorry if it's too late.
But as far as i know,
I still love you as much as i did before.
Still waiting for the day when my dreams will come true.
& hopefully involving you.''

Labels: iesha, yours sincerely

I went to cold storage in north point early last week to buy my pantry stuff.

I was actually browsing around when one guy came to me and asked,
''Where can i find sugar?''

I was darmed shocked.
& in said,
''sorry i'm not any of those worker here.''

I laughed and go.

My uniform is very different from them.
HAhahaha.

LOL!!!!

darm paisey for the person sey. =D

Labels: iesha

I-AM-shasha


I shud be more firm with you. i shudn't have given in. but i failed n gave you numerous chances. thats my biggest mistake.