Sunday, March 28, 2010
I blog to let out what i really feel.
It's been kept inside, within me i can't possibly keep anymore or i will breakdown.
I've been DENYING.
I thot that cud make me really happy.
or help me a little.
but i was wrong.
I still love hafiyan alot.
and it's hurtful to have treat each other as frens.
i cudn't but it seems like i forced myself to.
actually i cudnt even look at him or talk to him normally.
but i pretended that was okay.
i am okay with it.
but actually no.
it's hurtful.
i dun think he noe how i felt.
he treat it as if we are nothing.
nothing has happend to us before.
and how cud he possibly feel wad i felt.
coz he is merely enjoying, i am the one suffering.
maybe god made him to be like that.
not to feel wad others felt.
but at least understand.
love.
yes i did love him.
i try many ways to forget and hate him
but i just cudnt.
i just want that relationship i had with him last time.
but i cannot have it my way everytime.
wad i want is not wad i will get.
this is one of the example.
and yeah.
it hurts not to be able to say i love you.
to have hug you.
to care for you.
not being able to do that hurts me the most
whats more hurtful was being so closed and not able to say how much i really love you.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HAFIYAn.
although i cudnt say it to u. i cud say it hear without u noeing. =(
Sunday, March 28, 2010
I blog to let out what i really feel.
It's been kept inside, within me i can't possibly keep anymore or i will breakdown.
I've been DENYING.
I thot that cud make me really happy.
or help me a little.
but i was wrong.
I still love hafiyan alot.
and it's hurtful to have treat each other as frens.
i cudn't but it seems like i forced myself to.
actually i cudnt even look at him or talk to him normally.
but i pretended that was okay.
i am okay with it.
but actually no.
it's hurtful.
i dun think he noe how i felt.
he treat it as if we are nothing.
nothing has happend to us before.
and how cud he possibly feel wad i felt.
coz he is merely enjoying, i am the one suffering.
maybe god made him to be like that.
not to feel wad others felt.
but at least understand.
love.
yes i did love him.
i try many ways to forget and hate him
but i just cudnt.
i just want that relationship i had with him last time.
but i cannot have it my way everytime.
wad i want is not wad i will get.
this is one of the example.
and yeah.
it hurts not to be able to say i love you.
to have hug you.
to care for you.
not being able to do that hurts me the most
whats more hurtful was being so closed and not able to say how much i really love you.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HAFIYAn.
although i cudnt say it to u. i cud say it hear without u noeing. =(
